| Sunday, March 13, 2005

hmm, interesting ...visison i gues, it wasnt a dream because i wasnt asleep yet, but rather i was in that state of mind where the only things that exist are your bed covers you, and the visions and thoughts that eventualy become your dream, and if they dont you realy have very little chance of remebering them.

well i rember one because it was exspetionaly odd, it was right as i was about to fall asleep for a nap. i could feel chelsea kissing my lips then slowly kissing my jaw line tword my ear, it was a tingaly good sensation but about halfway through i relised i had a gash from chin to ear that as she kissed along the gash it healed up, and the tingaling was from the healing, not from the pressure of her lips. at the time it was exeptionaly sothing and made me want chelsea to be on my couch with me so i could hug her as i fell asleep.

mildly intersting

Heoshewa
6:54 PM

| Friday, February 25, 2005
The Devils auction house: its too easy

Welcom’ welcom’ welcom’
I’d likes to thank you all for coming tonight
Shall we get started?
Let the bidding begin at
A lifetime of unwarranted success
One lifetime of unwarranted success
Can I get a guarantee for above moderate success?
Above Moderate success moderate success
Do I hear revenge?
Revenge once.
A cool billion
I hear a billion I hear a billion
Half a billion?
Half a billion half a billion
Common folks
Anything anything at all
What do we have what do we have?
10 million 10 million
I goda 10 I godda 10
5, 5, do I hear a flat mill?
A flat mill flat mill
One person wins here people
Half a mill goda half goda have
What can I get?
A successful small business?
Is that it folks?
Common common common
100,000? 100,000
100 thou is the bid folks
Who will stoop lower?
Who can I see who can I see?
Twenty FIVE thou
Folks we may have winner
Going once
Twice
15 thousand?
15 thou 15 though
Do I hear a 10? A 10?
10, 10’s the bid
15 minutes of fame?
15 minutes of fame is that it folks?
What can I get?
Goda 10 godda 10?
5!!
5 minutes of fame
Going once
Twice
BOUGHT!
For 5 minutes of fame
Thanks for coming in tonight folks
Remember, I’m heart every 3rd Sunday
So try your luck next time
All deals are final
And drive safe

Heoshewa
12:51 PM

| Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Maybe im back, maybe not.

Heoshewa
7:58 PM

| Sunday, October 17, 2004
why do i think i can do this?
what makes me think syracuse is sme kind of saftey school? its the top communications school in the nation, and i play it off as a a place i might get some money. i think, bowdoin, bates, colby, carlton, macalester, oberlin, yea i can get in, but it the money thats the problem. god damnit, these are the same school jim or jake would/are apply/ing to, these are the same school the goddam validictorian of LHS is applying to. what shits and giggles idea farted on my brain to make me think this was possible. so i can think "deep" thoughts, so can anyone, propose an idea, and you can get most people thinkin, no biggie. my sat scores are good, ok... i can do algabra, and not choke or stumble. wow. and dont correct me, cuz now thinking about what i wrote i feel like im fishing for compliments or something. its not like im not gona apply to these schools, so dont worrie.
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i wont know what to say
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college is comming, and im so ready, and so very not at the same time. im set on far away, i think. i fill my lungs with new air, i wanna prove to myself i can survive
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i miss people
i miss my free time
today was a good day, i got chelsea flowers, and she liked them
im so screwed
dodgeball club got 270 signitures on a petition without even realy trying. lets see waht tomarrow brings.
i want a super power
i dont feel special right now.
i have kind of a cool idea for a new d&d charecter, but i have to think it out more
i dont like religion, im on the from line for the progressive alliance in the cultur war over america. ...those damn orthodox pink-os...
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my ego got inflated - the validictorian of LHS told me to stop applying to the same schools because she thought they would compare me and her and not accept her. complimenting yes... true? probly not so much. but still complimenting. comments like that prolly are the reason i think ill get accepted to carlton or bowdoin or UoC, i mean common, im taking the SAT II's, i must be awsome.

Heoshewa
7:49 PM

| Friday, September 24, 2004
in ability to listen to reason is a pet peve of mine

Heoshewa
11:05 PM

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It is a common philosophy that all things need a basis. Good is based on an opposing evil, and vice versa. Accomplishment is based on the lazy, and moral apathy is based on moral piety. But I've come to wonder if good relay can exist without evil. Useing evil as it is known now as the base, could we not slip into a "good" society with no remnince of evil. Good people, with good morals, accomplishing things to their potential. And instead of the mind set of "at least I'm better than him, or I should be better than that person at that" a shift tword the inner "I'm doing my best, and I know it" in fact would be the better way to go.

also a thought came into my head, if one is to willing sacrifice himself for others, then don't we need people will to sacrifice said person? In any example, 2 people express a difference of opinion on any situation. "who gets the last dounut" comes to mind. assuming both want the dounut, it would call on not just one person will to make the sacrifice of not getting the donut, but also from the other person willingness to take a donut from some they know also wants it. the question the comes to mind is, is this wrong of them? and the best anser i can come up with is no. for if both were equaly willing to give it up and equally not willing to take away something from a person, then the donut would go waisted. (and for hypothetical pourposes the donut can not be split) where the problem arises is when over and over again the same person subsides to the dominat and sacrificing tendancies of the other. but then again there is the question of who is at fault? the pushed or pusher, the sacrificed, or the sacrificer? is it the responsibility of a person to tap into themself to see they need to make some sacrifices, or is it within a persons right to finaly say, "ENOUGH, the next dounut is mine." in a moraly ideal society, both would be able to relize the need for someone to have the dounut but then relize that to be fair and equal, the next time an equaly trivial or equaly important matter occurs, the sacrificed and sacrificer should switch.

i htink it would realy smooth things out, alot

Heoshewa
1:33 PM

| Thursday, September 23, 2004
i have recently been on the verge of tears quiteendlessly, but never rely breaking it. and the weirdest part is that its for no specific reason. a song suddenly start up, and i have this jouys need to cry, or a song so right in everything it says gives me the urge to cry, or some terribly sad song, or some terribly sad image. anything realy good, realy happy, or realy sad as made me feel as if i should be crying, i can feel it right behind and slightly under my eyes.

im not sure if i realy want to cry anyways, i mean, ive got this streak going and all.

Heoshewa
6:23 PM

| Tuesday, September 14, 2004
"do what you want. Be happy" - my dad

Heoshewa
6:11 PM

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its an amazment that still in this day and age, well after the invention of music and all its splendor, that anyone is capable of continual sadness.

Heoshewa
6:07 PM